and I want it to be over. Today is my birthday, it should be a happy day, I have fought hard to celebrate, but to tell you the truth so far today has just been awful. I miss my mom and I'm mad that she isn't here. I HATE death, so there.
Sorry if you reading this and you've done something special for me, it does mean a lot to me and I thank you for it.
Ok so 10 minutes after I post this, I got a beautiful bouquet of flowers from my mom's friends, who have been calling all day just to tell me they love me. I'm grateful. Today is not so bad, but man I'm volatile...argh!